I can feel the depression...

I noticed it yesterday. It has been creeping back upon me behind my back. 

I think the way to deal with this is to not give in and except it.

I need to GET OUT OF BED, wash my hair, smile sweetly and do some work. I think seeing people other than who i live with may be a bit too far but as long as I GET OUT OF BED, I can't be depressed again? Right?

Well who knows what will happen if i dont give in and try and do normal things.

Its so weird to see yourself changing and have no control, memory or way of getting back to how you were. Maybe I have just idolised the old me...