Hmmm

I am a horrible friend and im guessing equally horrible person to live with. I. just. cant. tell her. Im worried that i have let it get too bad and telling someone all in one hit must not be nice and more than likely will be taken seriously maybe too seriously.

I dont think i want to burst though and end up telling someone when im in the wrong or different frame of mind. Sometimes i seem to move to be a different person, its still part of me and how i feel but it completly takes hold of me and becomes - what someone see as 'me.' It is me but not the whole me, just a horrible slice that takes over.

I should tell someone soon. Maybe. Well i told the doctor, and phoned the specialist to see when she back. And i will find out my appointment with the psychiatrist.

The thing is, if i tell somone, the horrible low bit may takeover and my life may have to go on hold and i just dont know for how long. If i had a time estimate i would be fine.

Bum.